nezami

i wrote about ferhad in last post , you can find the story here :

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Khosrow_and_Shirin

i like that story , nezami is a great poetry

ferhad will dig mountain

yo mountains , did I ever heart you ?
but you should know if you want to stop me get to my love ,
I will dig you a tunnel to reach my love ,
i know you all afraid of people like "ferhad" that did a big canal in mountains like you to reach his love !
i will crash your stones 1 by 1 , if I know you wanna stop me !
but did I ever heart you ?

frozen kid

i wrote sentences here and deleted them again few times , now i dont think i can write another one ! i wanna say : i'm frozen kid , that loves you more than anything in my life , i think you are my other half ,love you bestrider :) , i'm nothing wihtout you ,
1 day you will see my weblog that i wrote for you with my amateur english language , and i want know what will you act on that day ,


wanna yell ! I LOVE YOU BESTRIDER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

first person in my life

today you saved me from my worthless things and stuffs again like yesterday and days ago :)
today was one of my best chatting day with ya that i had ^^ .
now i know that you are alike me much , you are quiet most of times and you talk much with person that you know some times lol , i'm exactly in same way xD
you told me that i'm first person in your life that you told me these things about yourself ,
its really unbelievable to me :)

I love You bestrider ,

one day all world will know that i always loved you , love you now and will love you forever ^.^

new life ! ^^

yea yea yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ! xD
now i think i'm the happiest person in world ^^ as you said : that i'm like you as friend but dont know about future , this is means that i still have a chance ! to love and be loved ^^ .

dont wanna talk much now but i'm soooooooooo happy ^^ !! lol i really happy that found someone like ya
.
i love you bestrider more than anything ! ^^

feverly love

my head is hot , have a bit fever :| got cold 2 days ago , cant think more than this today , i'll fail anyway i know like always ,

you are my god , just want you to know again !! i will die without you bestrider , but its your choice i cant do much thing about it :( ,

its first time that i'm going to sleep at 10:55 ! in these years , or just maybe 1 or 2 times i did it !
i dont know what i'm talking about ! told that i got fever ,

fuck me @@ !

i made a photo that i was thinking about it today , its not good cos i'm not good ! but at least i painted like what i wanted , :|
i wanted to send ya this picture but , you told me in wow i wanna play alone ,
i know you trying to tell me leave me alone devil , you sucks devil !
i dont know what i should to do now :( , like always !
i'm not mad to ya i never can be ! but i mad to myself :( why i sucks too much , why i'm not deserve to love , dont know what i say !
i wanted to delete my picture that i made but then i decided to send it here like always .
i still have hope about you , i just need help to change myself , there is no one that can help me , its just you i think !

shower again :)

i took a shower , i was thinking like always , i wanted to write some again :)

if i was not meet ya in STV and didnt become friend with ya on that days : --->

maybe i had more golds in wow xD ! , maybe i had other friends , maybe i was 80 in wow now lol , maybe maybe and maybe ...
but i'm sure that if i was not meet ya there i was not alive now :) i'm sure that i was daed or something like dead person that cant do anything ! :)
you gave me new life , you gave me aim , you gave me everything , I LOVE YOU "bestrider "

28 november !!

i got cold yesterday and i still need rest to get better . today i decided to back and write something here .
i'm not sure but i think i make you uneasy :( , i know i'm boring person ! specially when i dont feel healthy :|
i asked about grash and wild when recycle told " maybe grash is in bed with wild " , but i dont really didnt think about question cos i dont know em anyway :| , just wonderd why recycle told that thing , to know if grash is in love with wild ,
but i swear that dont even think about be in bed or anything else :( love is not sex !!
tons of thinks now is my mind its muddy !! , if i made ya to think that i want you for be in bed ! noo !!!! i swear no ! :|
maybe you dont even think about me now maybe its just my mind again !
but i know that I LOVE YOU , and nothing else no one else is important for me in this world !
i will paint picture tomorrow for you to calm myself down , and make you happy .
there is no any thing better than " love" in world and i just love you bestrider.

last post maybe on this blog

now i,m connecting internet from university , i dont know whats the problem with my blog . finally i made another one again (third one) in irani server : deviltabriz.mihanblog.com
i really like blogger , hope i will be able to solve this problem soon :) . but anyway i can write here again , at least in university ;) or i will write in new blog , still not sure about that xD
but i,m sure that i will continue my writeings :P

new blog

i dont know why i cant login to my blog anymore , i think google blocked iran too because my msn ID blocked also devil13_7@msn.com ! so i made new one without select my country to iran ! !
: or there is other problem that i dont know .
i made new blog here : http://deviltabriz.wordpress.com/ i will write there i think if this problem wont solve later :
i will continue writing about my love bestrider and myself there ^^ i know 1 day bestrider will read these things , i will know her name , i will see her , because i cant live without her ,
so its not important where i write about love i just writing my feelings and other things that happens around me .
hope this blog work later but i wanna finish this blog with this sentence like i started it with that ^^:

"I LOVE U my BESTRIDER "

broken silence !

26 days silence :) , without any post , lol . now its time to break this silence xD
its about 30 hours that i didnt talk with anyone , didnt chat also, now you are in your grandpa's home i think ,i missed you so much :) every day i love you more and more ^^ ,

i wanted to dont talk with anyone until u back i wanted to keep this my silence thing xD and wanted u to be my first person that i'll talk after few days but it will be much time maybe 1 week xD and everyone will get mad at me lol .
but it was really nice this 30 hours :P i went bank and did what i needed without any single word xD i bought drag from dragstore without talking lol , i played wow , group quest , and did ST instance as healer without any single word lol ,
when my mom and dad saw me without talking they wonderd at first , after some hours mom got mad lol that why i dont answer her and didnt answer to phone calls hehe!! but then they both loughed at me :P
but it wasnt so hard that i thought befor doing this !!

i hope u return soon :) its just 30 hours that u didnt online but its like 1 month for me :) i missed you much much much ! I LOVE YOU bestrider ^.^
i wonder what u think about my birthday xD you know what i want more than anything :P i wanna know my love's name ! that will be my best gift ever i had befor , hope u tell it to me , but its not problem if you still dont like to tell xD i can wait for ever to hear that ^^ !
u made character with name of rakera, its female name :P i guessed that its your real name first time when i saw that lol ,but not sure :P
i wanna hear from you and hope u will tell that whats your name, in my birthday or even befor that lol !
so now i can talk xD but i think i will not talk much you know that lol you are the only one that i never tired to talk with <3

words against words

you tell me "m8 " , i tell you "my dear" ,
you tell me"friend" , i tell you "my love" ,
you tell me "devil " , i tell you "my bestrider" ,
you say "i like you", i say "i love you" ,

you tell "cya m8", i tell "take care my dear" ,

back after 11 days !

11 days without any posting :) because i didnt think that i need post anything , its perfect to ply game with you <3 . yesterday i wanted to post but my internet had problem so now i will post them :

i need to improve myself my feelings , maybe this sentence is good for beginning : " No Mad ! No Sad ! " i need to controll myself then i will be able to do my job well ,i know soon or late i will come sweden to meet you <3 so i need to be better than this .

i know that maybe i,m ugly boy, with no job, from "iran" that most of people in world think its the terrorist country with terrorist people :) yea its true governtment sucks here but there is still some good persons .
i think i,m like thrall (ungly orc in world of warcraft that loved a human beautifull girl then he became king of orcs ) lol its just story but there is many likeness between thrall and me :P ,

to day i started to read that book because i need learn english well and i like that kind of stories , i like loves between 2 different race, 2 enemies , 2 national , i like that kind of stories when 2 person loves together but all people think its mistake xD or impossilble ! but love doesnt have frontier !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but after this things that i said , they doesnt mattter at all xD i know that:
i love U ! i love U ! i love U ! i love U ! i love U ! i love U ! i love U !

how much ?

each time that i tell you cya tomorrow i wanna tell how much i love u xD but i think there is no anything that can count my love about u :P


III LLoooooooooVVeeeee UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

i want everybody knows that i found my second part of myself , its you bestrider, you are my second part that makes me complete ,i,m still dont know what do u think about me :) but at least i know that u dont hate me xD and u will not hate me later :P ,
i love u my dear bestrider ,

Miss_Li-Songs_Of_A_Ragdoll --- take a shower with me !


Why don't you wanna
take a shower with me baby?
Why do you keep saying maybe maybe?
Is it something I have done
so tell me know
Do you think that I have done you harm?

Is it something you have done
that shouldn't been done?
Have you been out having too much fun?
Tell me baby
Tell me or I loose my mind
Don't you know my love for you is blind?

Don't you wanna cuddle with me baby?
Why do you keep saying maybe maybe?
Is it someting I have said
so tell me now
Can I turn it right so tell me how.

Or is it someone else
that you want more than me?
Have you been invited for a cup of tea?
Tell me baby
Tell me or I loose my mind
Don't you know my love for you is blind?

Don't you wanna take
a shower with me baby?
Can't you see you drive me crazy crazy
Is it something I have done
so tell me now
Do you think that I have done you harm?

Is it something you have done
that shouldn't been done?
Have you been out having too much fun?
Tell me baby
Tell me or I loose my mind
Don't you know my love for you is blind?

Don't you know my love for you is blind?
Don't you know my love for you is blind?

2 weeks

i didn't write anything here for few days, because everyday u come online and we play game together , i didn't write here bacause when u are with me (even on internet) i really dont want anything else, i dont think about anything else when u are with me ,
i love u bestrider :)



i will play wow for 1 or 2 weeks everyday ,i wanna lv up my druid and maybe mage, but after 2 weeks i will not play more than u , because i need to do something ,its so simple :P i cant come sweden if i play just wow 24 hours lol ! i will go university and some other class , hope i will be good enough to do all of things that i want to be ! :) i'll do everything to meet you there ! ^.^

its about few days that i have best times with you that playing wow together :) , i really love u bestrider :) you are so kind to me ^^ thank you so much , i know one day i will meet you :) maybe after that you done collage and i done university (few years xD) , i will earn much money to be able travel sweden :P , i will start to work about 1 month later xD my dad will give me 2000 $ for starting my bussines :P ,
btw i,m still wonderd why u dont tell me your name lol or your city name !! :P while that i dont you name i will call you bestrider :P
III LLLOOOVVVEEE YYYOOOUUU bestrider !!!

there is a parable in our language that says :
when wind give u something , wind will give back that thing again !
means :
if u earn something easy ! u will lose that thing easy too ,
that mean if u work hard to make,earn or reach something u will keep that hard and u will not lose that so easy !

so i work hard to reach u :P ! i will do everything to be worthy for that xD !

time ! i need to learn how to wait !

i was thinking about myself : i like to do everything fast , when i want to do something i like it to done too fast , when i want improve, learn ,upgrade or anything else i like speed , but now i think its not good , its the thing that make me sad and angry always , i need to learn how to wait and let everything have they own time ,
because when i want to learn something i need to wait and learn slowly ,nobody can run 10000 KM in 1 minute !!! when i want to make movie,music,painting or anything else i want to done it in one day , but i need time to do it in best resoult , i need practice everything, no body can make movies just in 1 day !

and about u bestrider, i love u , i thought i need to have your love to fast ! because i,m fast one ,as i said i love and hate things too fast , and i love u forever but now i think u need time too , i dont know how much time, but i should not want u to love me to fast , u need time , you are different kind of girl , speciall one but u need time like others ,
but remember i cant live without u bestrider ! so i will wait for you 900 years if need !! xD

cos i am , what ever u say i am ! xD i can be what ever u want , i can be everything :) ,
i need u bestrider , i love u :)

so tired , gonna sleep again like all days !!!!!!!!!
maybe tomorrow i will write about today .

i love u bestrider ,

noooooooo ! plzzz i beg uuuuu

plzzz, understand, i love u , i dont know what i can do , i do everything for you , plzzz :(
:(( i cant live without u , i wanna tel these directly to u , but i afraid to make u sad or angry :(
nooooo, plzzzzzzzzz , i accepted university today , but i will not go there if i dont have your love, i will not do anything , i wanna tell all of these to u , but i,m afraid :(( noooooo!

whuhoooooooooooooooooooo

yeaaaa :)))) lol , this was one of my best days ! after months you came online on wow todaaay !!!!!!!! yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

i will make dance movie soon xD !!!!!!! lol , i,m happiest person today on tha world !!!!!

stronge

aah i read again your message that you said u feel like going to be sick soon , now i understand that maybe you are sick these days so cant reply me :) hope you will be healthy soooon , you are sooo strong :P

i,m tired and waiting for your messages :)

3 days without message :( , why u do this to me my dear :( ! i'm gonna crazy without your message
yea maybe u have trouble or you are so tired to send message to me :) i need to think its ok :) ,

i think hard sporting is good for me, because I like to be tired some times , like today !
but its kinda hard because i cant do anything , i'm just listen to music and do little things on computer .
i,m so tired to write interesting things of today and yesterday .
but remember that if u dont send message to me even for a year ,i will never forget u , i will come to find u in sweden !
I love u my tomboy girl ! i love u bestrider !

benim sevdiyim sensin :) senin sevdiyin hani ?

you are my love , btw who is your love ?

happy day

i must dont forget " Hudiksvall" 03:20 with car to stockholme 297 km , and other cities near that maybe .

i slept for few mins about 1 hour ago . i was so tired , i remember a dream something about "sem" or semt or... lol i searched in sweden about "sem" then found sem station between place that u were on vocation "Are" and "ustersund" , i think its just dream lol and the something funny maybe , i dont think its anything about u or something xD .


if i was king or somthing people should to me and translate my dreams lol ,

i,m home , home again !

(i,m home , home again !) i arrived home 2 hours ago . mountain was wonderful , and it was raining when we back ,
when i was top of mountain i wish u were there next to me to see how beautiful was there,
or i wish i had good camera to take some pictures to show you , maybe i buy one soon ,because there is so many things that i think are interesting things that can show u .

i told taher that i want go mountain but now he want to come with me :| ,

mountain

i have boxing class after 01:30 hours ,but i,m not good enough to go there , maybe its better to go mountain today for few hours , i know that " taher" will tell me why u dont come class with me , but i want to be alone again ,
i hope he will not come with me and he will not tell anything about that .

w8 & m8

i forgot to tell
i,m gonna hate this words : w8 & m8
i hate "waiting" days and days .

and i hate "m8" because u just tell me: hey m8 ,how are you m8 , good luck m8, bye m8 !
m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8
m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8
m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8

but i will "w8" to hear other words instead "m8 " .

i beg u , plzzz

it's first time that i want crying after years :( , but not like child , i don't know what i say .
u said u are to shy , i,m to shy , i think that's why i cant make this easy , maybe if i wasn't shy it is better than this , but now i don't know what i can say , i,m coward ,i love u but i,m not able to have your love :( , i dont know what i can do , i dont know anything , even i don't know what reply to you :( i check mailbox every hour but now after 4 days that u replyed me i dont know what i should say ! do i must tell u "i love u" time by time ? or its better to silente and just watch like sheep !
what should i do ?whaaaaaat ? why its so hard to love someone for some people :( ? plzzz ,i beg u ,but i don't know i beg u to do what ? i think i want just some love , yea i want U to want me ! ,

now i,m perspir cold water , its first time that i,m like that when i'm writing . my body is wet :(


maybe one day u will see this blog and u will know how much i love u !

i made a new movie and uploaded it on youtube here it is :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jsWLZvMDafw



i made it for you ,because u like wolfs ,i like too , its my first edited movie , its not so good ,it just took few hours to cut some movies and make this one and render them ,
i can do what u want , i think i need some help about that what i should to do ! maybe i should make some movies or animation about love, or some horror things, i really don't know what will your act , i just want to make u happy , its not important how i am :( ,or maybe u are already happy , i dont know what i want u to do really , maybe it will be enough just to be online plzzz !




i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know


maybe i shouldn't want that :(( maybe u have problem that u cant tell me why u dont want to online .

:((

its not important i,m in distraction or i,m "angry" , "sad" or happy :( i will do anything to reach u , i think its normal to be angry or sad sometimes :| ,
i can be destroyer or builder on this world but i need U so much , i cant live without u .
plzzz dont do this to me, plz online sometimes ,
each time that u dont send massage to me i go depressing :(
whats my sin ? that i love u ?

lol i love xD

lol i called my sister to help me about painting with computer because the site that i was watching is french , after some minutes , she lough at me and said you are look like someone that love lol xD
i think i will tell her soon maybe :P

telepathy

ok now i got shower xD so i cant sleep lol i,m not sleepy !
i was thinking under shower : hmm what r u doing now ? or what r u thinking now ! maybe u slept nicely in your bed ^^ , maybe playing something with your friends or anything else . i wonder will i know them one day ? i will find and learn telepathy or anything else sooooon !
i think if there is something like that i will discover them soon , because there is no anything else that i want know more than that ! , i wanna see you , i wanna know about your thinks and other things .
we have a parable in our language : "people tell big lie about something ? ! so there is little truth about that !"
i translate that so maybe its not so good xD . i mean: if there is no something wonderfull like telepathy then people dont talk about that , (there is history books, movies, parables and so many other things about that , so it can be true maybe ! )even if there is nothing like that i will sure about that :)

today was (or "is" because i didnt sleep yet xD) a little different by last days . its 2 days without massages :) i know u are on weekend vacation or something like that with your friend ^^ .
it's really hard to write here i have no any special thing to tell :) .
there is nothing interesting to do for now .sometimes life is really boring xD without your friends , without any movie,game, or any other interesting thing . its 2:21 AM maybe its time to get a shower then sleep :) .
i discoverd somthing now ! writing is really good for me , because i felt relax after my first post few min ago !!!!!!

stupid taher xD

today tahers girl friend arrived tabriz but he is a kind of stupid , he said i cant see her , i,m not ready to see her :| ! i dont have car,money , i dont know any dances :O , and some other things , i tried to make him to go and meet her , but he is seriously stupid lol . maybe the things that he said are true, yea maybe u haven't car and money .... maybe u dont know anything like that but after 3 years that you talked on phone or chatted together , now u are able to see your love ,so anything else doesn't matter , u can be peace of dung but now its time to meet your love ! now i don't want to make him to do anything . its up to him , its not about me .
but i know if i was instead him and able to see my love i cant wait to meet U xD even if i sick or if i get just 1 leg lol , i come to see you !!

U are chosen !

U can be tomboy , u can be girly ,u can be what u want lol but doesn't matter for me :P
I love U xD U are chosen ! :P

<3

yea its time to change xD , i need to change everything around me , i don't know if i didnt know U what i do ? i say thank you so much for who that helped to make wow game :P because i meet u there ! lol
you are like the bell sound that called me ! hey lazy boy , get up its morning and u have too many things to do today ! ^^


I love U bestrider !!!!

900 year old boy

so i think my friend's story will be good ended soon or late ;)
i hope one day we will meet together and i really want to see you :P
if u dont tell me where u live or something , i will search sweden person by person to find u ^.^ i will search someone with name bestrider . i will find u even if i am 900 year old boy :P do u know why ? because i will live for 910 years xD
and the other most important reason : i love u
xD

gentelman

i see that taher(my friend that wanted to kill himself because of his love) is happy in last few days , today he said , his love will not marry with someone else and she and her family will come our city soon , so he thats why he is happy lol , but he need help to looks handsome and how to behave and talk with girls , i know that i,m not good but i,m better than him :P because i have sister but he has just one big brother xD . so i will be like his assitance we will buy new clothes and shoes and do more xD i wanna make him a gentelman then when she see him will think" wow he is the best guy that ever i can have "lol , so we need to start tomorrow because we have no time i think after 1 or 2 weeks they will come !

i cant stay against love :P

niceeeee ^.^ so u will be online again soon . that's great , btw still u didnt answer me about your 3 first guesses that why i looking for sweden ppl and places. and about skype xD , but i will not ask em again because i dont want make u uneasy , so i write here everything .


btw i wanna tell u truth :P if someone try everything like things i did to make me understand how much love me , i really gonna love her lol , btw i don't know why u are not like that , i mean if someone tell me that "I love u" it's really hard for me to tell nah i don't love u lol ! i,m gonna love everybody if they tell me I love U :P i cant stay against love xD

Love easy

let's love everything easy way. why we make that hard ? its really easy to love something or someone . don't need to think about love that is it true or not , just love easy way ,
Cause everybody's gotta die sometime .
we born 1 time in our life , we love 1 time , and we will die 1 time .
so let's love each other .


if someone likes you ,u should love him/her .
if someone walks to reach u , u should run to reach him/her .

who is she?

who ?

this is todays picture ,i done that few min ago !

rock star -hannah montana (love this lyric)

rock star -hannah montana

Sometimes I walk a little faster
In the school hallway
Just to get next to you
Some days I spend a little extra
Time in the morning
Just to impress you

Guess you dont notice
Guess you dont need to
Sad you're not seein
what you're missin'
On the outside shyin' away
On the inside dyin' to say

I'm unusual
Not so typical
Way too smart to be waiting around
Tai chi practices
Snowboard champion
I could fix the flat on your car
I might even be a rockstar

Sometimes I wish when the phone rings
That it would be you
Sayin' let's hang out
Then you confess
That there's something special between us
Why don't we find out

But you don't even know me
Guess you don't need me
Why you're not seein' what you're missin'
On the outside shyin' away
On the inside dyin' to say

Nobody's Perfect lyrics - hannah montana

Nobody's Perfect lyrics hannah montana
Everybody makes mistakes... Everybody has those days... Everybody knows what what I'm talkin' 'bout... Everybody gets that way...

Sometimes I'm in a jam
I've gotta make a plan
It might be crazy
I do it anyway
No way to know for sure
I'll figure out a cure
I'm patchin' up the holes
But then it overflows
If I'm not doin' to well
Why be so hard on my self?

[Chorus]
Nobody's Perfect!
I gotta work it!
Again and again 'til I get it right
Nobody's Perfect!
You live and you learn it!
And if I mess it up sometimes...
Nobody's perfect

Sometimes I work a scheme
But then it flips on me
Doesn't turn out how I planned
get stuck in quick sand
No problem, can't be solved
Once I get involved
I try to be delicate
Then crash right into it
My intentions are good
Sometimes just misunderstood

[Chorus]

Nobody's Perfect!
I gotta work it!
Again and again 'til I get it right
Nobody's Perfect!
You live and you learn it!
And if I mess it up sometimes...
Nobody's perfect

Nobody's perfect!
I gotta work it!
I know in time I'll find a way
Nobody's perfect!

Sometimes I fix things up
And they fall apart again
Nobody's perfect

I might mix things up
But I always get it right in the end

[Talking]
Next time you feel like... it's just one of those days...
when you just can't seem to win
If things don't turn out the way you plan,
FIGURE SOMETHING ELSE OUT!
Don't stay down! Try again! YEAH!

[Singing (x2)]
Everybody makes mistakes.....
everybody has those days.....
everybody knows what, what I'm talkin' 'bout.......
everybody gets that way

Nobody's Perfect!
I gotta work it!
Again and again 'til I get it right!
Nobody's Perfect!
Ya live and ya learn it!
And if I mess it up sometimes...
Nobody's Perfect!
I gotta work it!
I know in time I'll find a way
Nobody's Perfect.
Ya live and ya learn it!
'Cause everybody makes mistakes

Nobody's Perfect! No no! Nobody's Perfect!

yesterday u asked me : " why are u looking up info about swedish places btw? "

and now my answer : " because i love u bestrider , i love u more than everything "

26/24 xD

day is 24 hours BTW do u know that i,m thinking about you 26 hours at day :) !

i can break mountains if u just want it :) i can cross ocean if u want it ! i can rich everything if hear your word :)
one day i will hear that , then nobody will be able to stop me !

click on the pictures to see full size !

seviorum

seni seviorum kiz !!!!!!!!!!!!!! xD
asigim millet !!!!!!!!!!

i know someday u will know what i said here xD ^^ !!!!!!!!

ruslana- wild dance !

ruslana- wild dance !

Just maybe I’m crazy,
The world spins round and round and round

I want you to want me as I dance

Forever, and ever, go (Hey!), go (Hey!)!
Go wild dancers!

Day-na-day-na Wanna be loved (Hey!)
Day-na Gonna take my wild chances (Hey!)
Day-na-day-na Freedom above (Hey!)
Day-na-da-na-da I’m wild ‘n’ dancing

Go wild dancers!

Day-na-da-na-da I’m wild ‘n’ dancing


Dance forever, come and be mine,
Dance together, till the end of time
Dance together go, go, go wild dancers!!

photoshop cs3

i edited 2 pictures today xD , i put em here ;)

un predict able

i was thinking that i,m the who that is good or best as a friend ,yea i believe this i,m really good as a friend for most of friends , but i,m not good as a who that loves somebody more than friend ,
it,s like wow items(game) , my items are great my normal instances but they are not good for heroic instances , so i need gear up and upgrade my mind !
i think its enough to talk about myself , no one can understand me :) and no one can predict my acts or something ... even i dont know myself , so i will not talk about myself anymore .
i will try to find some issues about life and everything around me on the world specially U bestrider ^^ . because u are shadow everywhere on the earth :P

i know u don't like me as much as past months , i don't know why . maybe its because i said u i love u . or anything else , but it's not important now , i will try again , i will start from beginning and then when i say i love u u will tell me i love u too xD ! and it will be my rebirth of my life ^.^ .

fro starting ! i manitism xD hehe u don't know whats that , but u will know after my rebirth :P

it's not hard to find a friend , but its hard to keep your friends and be a friend .


u said u never loved someone in you life , but u will . i know this . and i hope i will be this lucky guy!
i will find u a day in a place .

can i ask question plz ? i think u know that i love u , but why u dont like me ?what's the problem here ? is it because of my country ? hmm dont think so , is it because of my pictures ? so am i ugly ? dont know maybe ! is it because of my acts ? i was playing game 10 hours in day ! is that because you afraid to love someone ? absolutly not ! so whats that ? why ?
it's really hard to love someone if u have completely dark heart with a small light in the middle :)

yesterday i chatted with my friend (ex class m8) , after 1 hour he said do u love someone ? i said why u ask this ? what will happen if i love or not , and he said i think u love someone becouse u look like that , u don't do anything , and completely you I like who that love someone, :) then i said yes i love a girl that she is far away from me and she don't like me anymore .

i loved U and nothing can change this , love is not simple thing that can find something instead of that .
love is the small word but it's like a ocean .

I really want you to really want me
but I really don't know
if you can do that.
I know you want to know what's right
but I know it's so hard
for you to do that.
Time's running out as it often does
and often dictates
if you can't do that.
Fate can't break this feeling inside,
that's burning up through my veins.
No matter what I say or do,
the message isn't getting through,
and you're listening to the sound
of my breaking heart.

Mine Is Not A Heart Of Stone, I Am Only Skin And Bone,
So I'm Standing All Alone, And I'm Only Skin And Bone.
I'll Take You Seriously,
Give Me Some Love,
Yeah, Give Me Some Love,

History

i was reading me and your char history in skype messenger history part few minutes ago. i think those are my best things that i had in my life, those are my best chats and talks i ever had :)
i hope you will online again soon , please do that , i don't know why u don't come online anymore :(
plzzzz do that plz be with me .
if u don't come online i will read our history everyday , because i feel so good when i read our conversation .

you wrote these sentence in your homepage :
I´m the Shadow behind every tree
I´m the Shadow under every car
I´m all Shadows a round the world


you are in my heart what you are and where you are .

i will fly again ! today is my first try to remember fly !

few minutes ago my sister said me you become a machine(robot) ! you don't have feel like ago , maybe she said that cos she was angry (we had a dispute on my computer ) but if this is true , that means i changed
i,m not same person like ago ,but how i changed ? , how am I now ? i don't understand !

plants grow everywhere and every time if there is some water and a little good things around .
they use the time very well they never stop , cos they know life is important ,
so why we don't use time well like plants ? why i,m like moving dead ?

happiness is real when shared !

there is no higher place more than sky ,
there is no beautiful thing more flower ,
there is no better word more than love ,
there is no dear one for me more than U ,
so :

I LOVE U "my dear flower on the sky"

time is very slow for those who wait

very fast for those who are scared

very long for those who lament

very short for those who celebrate

But

for those who love ,time is eternity

William Shakespear

bestrider

that doesn't matter what happens , I LOVE U "bestrider" this is the word that i,ll call u ^^
i will do sports everyday , i will make musics everyday , i will do what i need to love u more and more :) i hope one day u will love me too and i,m waiting to see that !

why i love my friends when i,m worthless for them ? why i help them everywhere even when i have no time ? even in wow (game) why when somebody ask me plz help me why i go and help him/her ? why i love people on the net when they are just words and letters ? i think i,m kind person , but why ? why i dont use bad words like fuck,suck,... ? why i love somebody when she even doesnt tell me her name ? how i love these ? this is cyber world they are just letters ,how i loveing them ? its really easy to tell" i love u " to a person in cyber world and then tell him i hate u , i dont like u ! is that really important ? is there anybody that really like me ? i dont think so .
so why i,m still here ? why i play game ? is that for items ? is that for tier 6 ,7,8,.. ? no i ,m not here to get just few items !
there is no the word by the meaning of the love for me in this world , there is no real friends for me!
i really glad that i never felt love befor . this is my first love and last love i think,
as she said me about my friend ,i must know why she dont love me ? whats the reason of that ? at least i will know what she think about me maybe ! how she is in my heart but she even dont trust me , anything ! maybe i ,m just so kind that i love her . maybe i just love my own mind (thinks) BTW there is nobody like that i made for myself :(
i tell again that i will do what i can to be in her heart ! i,ll find where she live because i dont want to lose her even if she dont like me :(

today i was going boxing class .i was walking on the streets while raining and thinking about myself and i discovered something : i,m so flexible person
i like all kind of music(rock,rap ,country,old musics,new musics) , i like all kind of music instruments , i like most sports , i like so different things ,
i like opposite things , i like hell i like heaven (i believe them in this world not in other world).
i like angels i like devils, i like humans but i like animals, sometimes i cant even kill a little fly or spider but sometimes i think i can kill even peoples .
i,m so flexible person. i think i can be the kindest person in the world or maybe i can be the most bad person in that . its up to peoples around me because they can do good effect on me so i can be good one or if something bad happens to me i can be bad one :|
i cant continue the something that i,m doing so much , cos i boring so fast , so i search something new in my life , i cant stay in one place and live there because its boring to me,
but i know there is no many persons that like or love me , maybe just as a family ,
even U don't like me , i have too many friends on the net , in the game ,messengers , or real life , but i know i,m good for them while they need me ,
nobody really like me as a real friend .
that's not my fault that i learn everything so fast as others in the beginning of that things ,but after a while that's boring for me and everybody think i not good in that lessons.
what i must do ? what i must to do to find my real friends ?what i must to do that U love me too ? yea i think nobody will love because i,m more than a normal person and less than a perfect person. if i was normal i could do everything normally & if i was perfect one i could do everything perfectly , but i,m special .i,m alone in this world , i love everything and i hate them too . maybe this is the reason that nobody really like me .sometimes i think like a child , but sometimes i,m like the 200 years old man !
this is good reason that u don't like me .
i wrote these things today but perhaps i don't believe them myself ,
let's stop talking like an old radio ,who will help me to find my way ? i thought u are the person that u can help me cos i found someone to love , but now i know i,m not the person that someone can love me . i know if i was instead u i don't love deviltabriz too .

but i will try my best again to love me ! that's why i told i,m flexible , i,m hopeful when i,m hopeless .

11 hours ago she was online , i can see this on homepage that say last online 11 hours ago :|
but why she didn't answer my posts ?
i just need to wait .

reason

Do u know whats the reason that i,m still alive ? cant u guess ? no ? hmm...
It's U !

sometimes i wish i had a garden to tear apart .
frasturated .
i,m not lost anymore.
same way anything lost gets find.
i stopped looking.


need t think about these sentences , MR lock said them on movie ;) "lost"

thinking is good but dont think too much when its make u feel bad about something .

today was so bad day to my friend , his name is taher we were class m8 but he is my just friend,
he loved a girl about 3 years ago , but he didn't talk about her much , we talked together 20 min ago .he is so sad , cos his friend getting marry today , he tried to kill himself few times , last time he did this, is about 1 week ago that his mother saw him and fall down , she was sick about 1 or 2 days in hospital :( i think taher needs help cos his love got marry :( . he cant do anything becouse he wanna see her happiness , we will go outtside 1 hour later i hope i can help him a little to feel better.
now i know why i wasn't feel good whole day . perhaps that was becouse of my friend .
what a worthless world we have :( why we live ?

nothing !

i have nothing to say today , Let's think about nothing ! yea that's a good way to be relax :)
ok but maybe i need some exciting things , i really dont know what to do :)i have an idea hmm how's this idea ? fix my bicycle and start travel around our city or other cities near that?but i have no friend to go with him, i should go alone .it's ok i have nothing to do here dont care about anything !

lol i writing new post every 20 mins ! i need sleep :)) but lets tell somthing else :
i told that: why she didnt send me even a little massage to know her friend is alive or not , but i dont think she doing this , as i said previous post i think she is with my as other person most of times :) i dont want tell name but i know she is smart one ,it must be important for she about friends specially who said I love U . i will not think about myself why she dont want me or some other stupid things like this anymore :) cos I am Savalan . Savalan feeling love :P ! lol i need sleep xD

same idea again like 2 week ago :| can it possible ? does she playing with me ? she want me to think she is another person to know me more and more :) ? there is 2 person from sweden ! girl! they never online fridays or saterdays :D i dont remember exactly :P . they have little brother , they are paying wow , ... ooh dont know :D maybe i shouldent know this , hehe ! lets think they are different person that have some same acts :)

2 hours ago i got out of home and ran about 15 minutes around our street to do some sport and think , why i dont feeling all right ? why i,m like stupid person that dont know what to do ? why i,m like that these last mounths ? i,m the person that anything didnt matter for me in this world i was free from all things in world , i was Savalan ! but i think i,m not doing well like savalan , yea thats my name but i,m not like that why ? i cant continue this way , yes lets be like Savalan ! lets be free , dont care about anything in world , everything will be all right until Savalan is alive !
do u think i,m crazy ? no i,m not ;) i,m trying to be different of other peoples all around the world , they are like sheeps , they wanna be safe , hot place , well foods everyday , wear well ... yes thats not bad to have place for sleep everyday , have food when u wanna eat always , never feel cold . but this is not reason that we are alive , cos animals like them too ! there must be different thing between us and animals . no i dont mean god , believe me ;) i didnt find that yet , but i will find something worth , ah no maybe i found one !!! thats you , you are most important person that i wanna be with ,
I am Savalan ! i love U ! i have great family in the world , is this not enough ? maybe yes maybe not ;) but : I Love U !

ahh i forgot to tell u whats happened today :D
me and my father was kidding and wrestling today before evening at about 2 o'clock
when i got his hand suddenly i hit him from his neck on the ground , aah that was mistake . now he cant move his neck because of me :( he feeling so pain . wow i,m so sad and so happy . sad because that job i did and happy because his neck didnt break :O i dont wanna think about that what happen if that was breaken ooooh nooo :D anyway he will be all right after 5 6 days i think ,
i love you dad ^^

after about 10 days she was online about 5 sec , that i couldent catch her in skype ! she did online on skype about 5 min that i did ALT+tap to write " hiiiiiii " then she disconnected !
why she dont want to send a little massage to see i,m alive or not :| ? ok lets think she dont feel any thing like love but she said you are my best friend then why she dont ask me" hi how r u its about 10 days that we didnt talk together r u all right ;) ? i couldnt be online for this or that reasons ... "? yea its so easy to click on compose and write a little stupid massage for me, anyway she have problem maybe , maybe that button are disable on her computer :) i will be alive with my dreams for ever . i dont want to send massage cos i wanna test her
i will try to write something like book or.. " the girl that i loved her for ever "
I Love U

am I worthless for her ?

its about 6 days that she didnt send massage to me , what is this mean ?
is this mean i,m worthless even if she like me as friend why she dont ask me that i,m alive or not :| ? because real friends some times wanna talk together ! i dont know what i say , its gonna be a big trouble for me , i think i will be alone forever if she dont like me :(

look around of you

look around you, take a good look ,just between you and me, are you sure this is place that u want to be ?
these are your friends , but are they real friend ? do they love you as much as you ? are you sure this is where u want to be ?i have hope i wouldn't cry !
look around you ,take a good look , are you sure u are who u want ? ...

psychology

i,ll try psychology way :P maybe u will understand that later xD
i cant tell u here , until see that if it works :P
u know I Love U ^^

ok lets me think what i must to do to u love me, maybe i,m not the guy in your dreams , i,m not perfect person in the world but i know there is nobody that is perfect ! hmm first thing that i must do maybe is try make something just for you , like movie ,or something hard and fun ,i must think a lot to choose a best thing :D
do u know who are you ? no ? haha let me tell you : you are my dreams girl , i loved you in first time that i chatted on game but i didn't know you are girl ^^ , we were friends about 7 month and i didnt know that :) but i was starting to feel some good feels about you ! now i know i cant be without you , i,ll try my best have this :) " you or nothing !" i love you even you are fat or thin , beautiful or ugly , bad or good , healthy or sick, i love you and i hope u will love me ! world will be worthless without you for me ,
hehe its enough for this post :D lets me keep somethings for next posts :P

time - pink floyd

Ticking away the moments that make up a dull day
You fritter and waste the hours in an offhand way
Kicking around on a piece of ground in your home town
Waiting for someone or something to show you the way

Tired of lying in the sunshine staying home to watch the rain
You are young and life is long and there is time to kill today
And then one day you find ten years have got behind you
No one told you when to run, you missed the starting gun

And you run and you run to catch up with the sun, but it's sinking
Racing around to come up behind you again
The sun is the same in a relative way, but you're older
Shorter of breath and one day closer to death

Every year is getting shorter, never seem to find the time
Plans that either come to naught or half a page of scribbled lines
Hanging on in quiet desperation is the English way
The time has gone, the song is over, thought I'd something more to say

BREATHE REPRISE
Home, home again
I like to be here when I can
When I come home cold and tired
It’s good to warm my bones beside the fire
Far away across the field
The tolling of the iron bell
Calls the faithful to their knees
To hear the softly spoken magic spells.

We belive in our dreams

yea
We belive in our dreams

i must be strong and never surrender ! no no noooooo ! i cant be without u , i know i should dont want anything from u :( anybody cant dare anybody to love anything :(
yes i love this song u puted on website :( its new day its new way i will wait for you !

here I am for ever waiting for you . and you are in my heart forever .

after bathroom and deep sleep in night now i feeling all right , now i know whats your feeling, its like me when i was 16-17 i think its the ages that cant love somebody its the age that u understand hate before love :D lol , wow i like psychology lol i know u r best psychologist that wanna test me before say anything :))
I LOVE UUU and anything cant change this any time any where ^^ !!!

i cant watch dark sky coz i feel dark is in mine :S i,m angry but i dont know why its like this . maybe it was my foult .
I love you , now i feel that deeper than ago !
i,m gonna listen some rock music it will be good now :|

without any hope

i must think think and think a lot about this :| cant say anything now i,m going up the roof few mins to watch dark sky and think about that !!

lol yeees I was right that was my stupid imagine !
she was on course !
everybody must know this : NO pie NO die !!!!!!!

It's 6 days that u don't answer to me , i see that u don't online , what happening there ? i don't know why i,m feeling something wrong there , maybe its just stupid imagine of my mind . maybe u r just busy , i ,m waiting here its so hard but cant do anything else i think :|

I can tell you everyday that i love u , i missed u , i cant live without you and bla bla bla , like every boys and girls that tell each other like them, but i think that its not good Idea to that when i dont know u like me or not maybe u r not ready yet maybe u love someone else maybe maybe maybe... and so many others bla bla bla :)) but i like to thinking u love me too and sometimes u miss me too :) i ,m waiting the time that u will tell me i love u too ,
some times i,m thinking the time that i will see you for first time , how will that ? how will my and your feel ? ah u saw my pictures and video ;) but i think about myself what was your feel about me ?
why i,m writing here ? hmm maybe it helps me to relax :) or maybe i,m just crazy lol .i wanna know hows your think about me but i think i will not know that soon .
ok i,ll conitue later :D

Nothing Else Matters

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
and nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us, something new
Open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they say
never cared for games they play
never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
and I know

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
No, nothing else matters

i want you know something

i wanna be with you everywhere anytime but i cant coz i,m so far of you
but i swear i,ll come your country in the time not so far .maybe you like me maybe not , but I LOVE you forever ! i don't know what u r thinking about me ,i,ll say everyday that i love you and this will not change anytime anywhere ,sometimes i dreaming you that i took your hand and we walking together ^^ i know this will be truth .
its your choice that believe me or not but you are my first and last love that i ,ll have forever !
i,ll fight for you !

moon

one day moon looked at me and said : why u don't leave your friend when she don't whisper u!
& i said : is dark sky leave u when you are not lighting?

i won !

ah now i,m really happy since i know she love me too ! ^-^
now i know that its not good to scare to say I love u !
so :


I LOVE U !

I LOVE YOU FOR EVER !

my first movie !

hey there ! i decided to make movie today morning and i done that few min ago :)
its naqara solo , naqara is the name of that instrument that i playing in the video
i upload it on youtube so you can watch from this link :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L5RFySTqktk

this is a gift for you my dear !i hope u will watch it :)

love always conitue 2 !

did u watch : into the night (santana feat chad kroeger) ?
i think i,m like that guy who wanna jump from roof and didnt do that when he see her :|
but there is a different between me and him . i never seen even a picture of my friend , but its not important , i,ll always love u even u dont know that :)


this is link of that song if u r interested u can watch that on youtube

love always continue

i confused what i must do :( ! please help me my friends . if u love some one more than a friend and u cant tell her , what u will do ? its what happened to me but i scare that she will get mad or ill lose her if i tell that :( so what i can do ? some one heeelp me !


did u watch : into the night (santana feat chad kroeger) ?
i think i,m like that guy who wanna jump from roof and didnt do that when he see her :|
but there is a different between me and him . i never seen even a picture of my friend , but its not important , i,ll always love u even u dont know that :)


this is link of that song if u r interested u can watch that on youtube :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7amYNaPTRI

Love

i want yell :
English :I Love You 02) Turkish : Seni Seviyurum03) Italian : Ti amo 04) German : Ich liebe Dich 05) Persian : Tora doost daram 06) French : Je t aime 07) Greek : S ayapo 08) Spanish : Te quiero 09) Hindi : Mai tumase pyre karati hun 10) Arabic : Ana Behibak 11) Iranian : Man doosat daram 12) Japanese : Kimi o ai shiteru 13) Yugoslavian : Ya te volim 14) Korean : Nanun tangshinul sarang hamnida 15) Russian : Ya vas liubliu 16) Romanian : Te iu besc 17) Vietnamese : Em ye^u anh 18) Ukrainian : Ja tebe koKHAju 19) Tunisian : Ha eh bak 20) Syrian/lebanese : Bhebbek 21) Swiss-German : Ch ha di ga rn 22) Swedish : Jag a"lskar dig 23) Africans : Ek het jou

Jag a"lskar dig
but i dont want to confused u so i,ll wait to tell that to u !!

First post !

Hey all , i just created this blog today
i,ll make my own template and post new things about myself and so many things here , each time i,m free .
for starting :) :
my name is Savalan 19 years old from iran ! i,m turk . i can speak turkish ,persian ,and english
some times i play violin but i,m not pro at playing violin ! i love all kinds music of the world like Rap,rock,jazz,country,and ....
i play pc games so much but offen world of warcraft !
i,m IT student , and like to work with softwares or programing
i like travel so much all around of world but I,m toooooo lazy sometimes :D
i ll tell u more about myself in next posts ;) i really interested to make new friends all around the world and i hope this blog will help me to my aim :)
I LOVE U BESTRIDER