whuhoooooooooooooooooooo

yeaaaa :)))) lol , this was one of my best days ! after months you came online on wow todaaay !!!!!!!! yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

i will make dance movie soon xD !!!!!!! lol , i,m happiest person today on tha world !!!!!

stronge

aah i read again your message that you said u feel like going to be sick soon , now i understand that maybe you are sick these days so cant reply me :) hope you will be healthy soooon , you are sooo strong :P

i,m tired and waiting for your messages :)

3 days without message :( , why u do this to me my dear :( ! i'm gonna crazy without your message
yea maybe u have trouble or you are so tired to send message to me :) i need to think its ok :) ,

i think hard sporting is good for me, because I like to be tired some times , like today !
but its kinda hard because i cant do anything , i'm just listen to music and do little things on computer .
i,m so tired to write interesting things of today and yesterday .
but remember that if u dont send message to me even for a year ,i will never forget u , i will come to find u in sweden !
I love u my tomboy girl ! i love u bestrider !

benim sevdiyim sensin :) senin sevdiyin hani ?

you are my love , btw who is your love ?

happy day

i must dont forget " Hudiksvall" 03:20 with car to stockholme 297 km , and other cities near that maybe .

i slept for few mins about 1 hour ago . i was so tired , i remember a dream something about "sem" or semt or... lol i searched in sweden about "sem" then found sem station between place that u were on vocation "Are" and "ustersund" , i think its just dream lol and the something funny maybe , i dont think its anything about u or something xD .


if i was king or somthing people should to me and translate my dreams lol ,

i,m home , home again !

(i,m home , home again !) i arrived home 2 hours ago . mountain was wonderful , and it was raining when we back ,
when i was top of mountain i wish u were there next to me to see how beautiful was there,
or i wish i had good camera to take some pictures to show you , maybe i buy one soon ,because there is so many things that i think are interesting things that can show u .

i told taher that i want go mountain but now he want to come with me :| ,

mountain

i have boxing class after 01:30 hours ,but i,m not good enough to go there , maybe its better to go mountain today for few hours , i know that " taher" will tell me why u dont come class with me , but i want to be alone again ,
i hope he will not come with me and he will not tell anything about that .

w8 & m8

i forgot to tell
i,m gonna hate this words : w8 & m8
i hate "waiting" days and days .

and i hate "m8" because u just tell me: hey m8 ,how are you m8 , good luck m8, bye m8 !
m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8
m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8
m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8 m8

but i will "w8" to hear other words instead "m8 " .

i beg u , plzzz

it's first time that i want crying after years :( , but not like child , i don't know what i say .
u said u are to shy , i,m to shy , i think that's why i cant make this easy , maybe if i wasn't shy it is better than this , but now i don't know what i can say , i,m coward ,i love u but i,m not able to have your love :( , i dont know what i can do , i dont know anything , even i don't know what reply to you :( i check mailbox every hour but now after 4 days that u replyed me i dont know what i should say ! do i must tell u "i love u" time by time ? or its better to silente and just watch like sheep !
what should i do ?whaaaaaat ? why its so hard to love someone for some people :( ? plzzz ,i beg u ,but i don't know i beg u to do what ? i think i want just some love , yea i want U to want me ! ,

now i,m perspir cold water , its first time that i,m like that when i'm writing . my body is wet :(


maybe one day u will see this blog and u will know how much i love u !

i made a new movie and uploaded it on youtube here it is :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jsWLZvMDafw



i made it for you ,because u like wolfs ,i like too , its my first edited movie , its not so good ,it just took few hours to cut some movies and make this one and render them ,
i can do what u want , i think i need some help about that what i should to do ! maybe i should make some movies or animation about love, or some horror things, i really don't know what will your act , i just want to make u happy , its not important how i am :( ,or maybe u are already happy , i dont know what i want u to do really , maybe it will be enough just to be online plzzz !




i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know


maybe i shouldn't want that :(( maybe u have problem that u cant tell me why u dont want to online .

:((

its not important i,m in distraction or i,m "angry" , "sad" or happy :( i will do anything to reach u , i think its normal to be angry or sad sometimes :| ,
i can be destroyer or builder on this world but i need U so much , i cant live without u .
plzzz dont do this to me, plz online sometimes ,
each time that u dont send massage to me i go depressing :(
whats my sin ? that i love u ?

lol i love xD

lol i called my sister to help me about painting with computer because the site that i was watching is french , after some minutes , she lough at me and said you are look like someone that love lol xD
i think i will tell her soon maybe :P

telepathy

ok now i got shower xD so i cant sleep lol i,m not sleepy !
i was thinking under shower : hmm what r u doing now ? or what r u thinking now ! maybe u slept nicely in your bed ^^ , maybe playing something with your friends or anything else . i wonder will i know them one day ? i will find and learn telepathy or anything else sooooon !
i think if there is something like that i will discover them soon , because there is no anything else that i want know more than that ! , i wanna see you , i wanna know about your thinks and other things .
we have a parable in our language : "people tell big lie about something ? ! so there is little truth about that !"
i translate that so maybe its not so good xD . i mean: if there is no something wonderfull like telepathy then people dont talk about that , (there is history books, movies, parables and so many other things about that , so it can be true maybe ! )even if there is nothing like that i will sure about that :)

today was (or "is" because i didnt sleep yet xD) a little different by last days . its 2 days without massages :) i know u are on weekend vacation or something like that with your friend ^^ .
it's really hard to write here i have no any special thing to tell :) .
there is nothing interesting to do for now .sometimes life is really boring xD without your friends , without any movie,game, or any other interesting thing . its 2:21 AM maybe its time to get a shower then sleep :) .
i discoverd somthing now ! writing is really good for me , because i felt relax after my first post few min ago !!!!!!

stupid taher xD

today tahers girl friend arrived tabriz but he is a kind of stupid , he said i cant see her , i,m not ready to see her :| ! i dont have car,money , i dont know any dances :O , and some other things , i tried to make him to go and meet her , but he is seriously stupid lol . maybe the things that he said are true, yea maybe u haven't car and money .... maybe u dont know anything like that but after 3 years that you talked on phone or chatted together , now u are able to see your love ,so anything else doesn't matter , u can be peace of dung but now its time to meet your love ! now i don't want to make him to do anything . its up to him , its not about me .
but i know if i was instead him and able to see my love i cant wait to meet U xD even if i sick or if i get just 1 leg lol , i come to see you !!

U are chosen !

U can be tomboy , u can be girly ,u can be what u want lol but doesn't matter for me :P
I love U xD U are chosen ! :P

<3

yea its time to change xD , i need to change everything around me , i don't know if i didnt know U what i do ? i say thank you so much for who that helped to make wow game :P because i meet u there ! lol
you are like the bell sound that called me ! hey lazy boy , get up its morning and u have too many things to do today ! ^^


I love U bestrider !!!!

900 year old boy

so i think my friend's story will be good ended soon or late ;)
i hope one day we will meet together and i really want to see you :P
if u dont tell me where u live or something , i will search sweden person by person to find u ^.^ i will search someone with name bestrider . i will find u even if i am 900 year old boy :P do u know why ? because i will live for 910 years xD
and the other most important reason : i love u
xD

gentelman

i see that taher(my friend that wanted to kill himself because of his love) is happy in last few days , today he said , his love will not marry with someone else and she and her family will come our city soon , so he thats why he is happy lol , but he need help to looks handsome and how to behave and talk with girls , i know that i,m not good but i,m better than him :P because i have sister but he has just one big brother xD . so i will be like his assitance we will buy new clothes and shoes and do more xD i wanna make him a gentelman then when she see him will think" wow he is the best guy that ever i can have "lol , so we need to start tomorrow because we have no time i think after 1 or 2 weeks they will come !

i cant stay against love :P

niceeeee ^.^ so u will be online again soon . that's great , btw still u didnt answer me about your 3 first guesses that why i looking for sweden ppl and places. and about skype xD , but i will not ask em again because i dont want make u uneasy , so i write here everything .


btw i wanna tell u truth :P if someone try everything like things i did to make me understand how much love me , i really gonna love her lol , btw i don't know why u are not like that , i mean if someone tell me that "I love u" it's really hard for me to tell nah i don't love u lol ! i,m gonna love everybody if they tell me I love U :P i cant stay against love xD

Love easy

let's love everything easy way. why we make that hard ? its really easy to love something or someone . don't need to think about love that is it true or not , just love easy way ,
Cause everybody's gotta die sometime .
we born 1 time in our life , we love 1 time , and we will die 1 time .
so let's love each other .


if someone likes you ,u should love him/her .
if someone walks to reach u , u should run to reach him/her .

who is she?

who ?

this is todays picture ,i done that few min ago !

rock star -hannah montana (love this lyric)

rock star -hannah montana

Sometimes I walk a little faster
In the school hallway
Just to get next to you
Some days I spend a little extra
Time in the morning
Just to impress you

Guess you dont notice
Guess you dont need to
Sad you're not seein
what you're missin'
On the outside shyin' away
On the inside dyin' to say

I'm unusual
Not so typical
Way too smart to be waiting around
Tai chi practices
Snowboard champion
I could fix the flat on your car
I might even be a rockstar

Sometimes I wish when the phone rings
That it would be you
Sayin' let's hang out
Then you confess
That there's something special between us
Why don't we find out

But you don't even know me
Guess you don't need me
Why you're not seein' what you're missin'
On the outside shyin' away
On the inside dyin' to say

Nobody's Perfect lyrics - hannah montana

Nobody's Perfect lyrics hannah montana
Everybody makes mistakes... Everybody has those days... Everybody knows what what I'm talkin' 'bout... Everybody gets that way...

Sometimes I'm in a jam
I've gotta make a plan
It might be crazy
I do it anyway
No way to know for sure
I'll figure out a cure
I'm patchin' up the holes
But then it overflows
If I'm not doin' to well
Why be so hard on my self?

[Chorus]
Nobody's Perfect!
I gotta work it!
Again and again 'til I get it right
Nobody's Perfect!
You live and you learn it!
And if I mess it up sometimes...
Nobody's perfect

Sometimes I work a scheme
But then it flips on me
Doesn't turn out how I planned
get stuck in quick sand
No problem, can't be solved
Once I get involved
I try to be delicate
Then crash right into it
My intentions are good
Sometimes just misunderstood

[Chorus]

Nobody's Perfect!
I gotta work it!
Again and again 'til I get it right
Nobody's Perfect!
You live and you learn it!
And if I mess it up sometimes...
Nobody's perfect

Nobody's perfect!
I gotta work it!
I know in time I'll find a way
Nobody's perfect!

Sometimes I fix things up
And they fall apart again
Nobody's perfect

I might mix things up
But I always get it right in the end

[Talking]
Next time you feel like... it's just one of those days...
when you just can't seem to win
If things don't turn out the way you plan,
FIGURE SOMETHING ELSE OUT!
Don't stay down! Try again! YEAH!

[Singing (x2)]
Everybody makes mistakes.....
everybody has those days.....
everybody knows what, what I'm talkin' 'bout.......
everybody gets that way

Nobody's Perfect!
I gotta work it!
Again and again 'til I get it right!
Nobody's Perfect!
Ya live and ya learn it!
And if I mess it up sometimes...
Nobody's Perfect!
I gotta work it!
I know in time I'll find a way
Nobody's Perfect.
Ya live and ya learn it!
'Cause everybody makes mistakes

Nobody's Perfect! No no! Nobody's Perfect!

yesterday u asked me : " why are u looking up info about swedish places btw? "

and now my answer : " because i love u bestrider , i love u more than everything "

26/24 xD

day is 24 hours BTW do u know that i,m thinking about you 26 hours at day :) !

i can break mountains if u just want it :) i can cross ocean if u want it ! i can rich everything if hear your word :)
one day i will hear that , then nobody will be able to stop me !

click on the pictures to see full size !

seviorum

seni seviorum kiz !!!!!!!!!!!!!! xD
asigim millet !!!!!!!!!!

i know someday u will know what i said here xD ^^ !!!!!!!!

ruslana- wild dance !

ruslana- wild dance !

Just maybe I’m crazy,
The world spins round and round and round

I want you to want me as I dance

Forever, and ever, go (Hey!), go (Hey!)!
Go wild dancers!

Day-na-day-na Wanna be loved (Hey!)
Day-na Gonna take my wild chances (Hey!)
Day-na-day-na Freedom above (Hey!)
Day-na-da-na-da I’m wild ‘n’ dancing

Go wild dancers!

Day-na-da-na-da I’m wild ‘n’ dancing


Dance forever, come and be mine,
Dance together, till the end of time
Dance together go, go, go wild dancers!!

photoshop cs3

i edited 2 pictures today xD , i put em here ;)

un predict able

i was thinking that i,m the who that is good or best as a friend ,yea i believe this i,m really good as a friend for most of friends , but i,m not good as a who that loves somebody more than friend ,
it,s like wow items(game) , my items are great my normal instances but they are not good for heroic instances , so i need gear up and upgrade my mind !
i think its enough to talk about myself , no one can understand me :) and no one can predict my acts or something ... even i dont know myself , so i will not talk about myself anymore .
i will try to find some issues about life and everything around me on the world specially U bestrider ^^ . because u are shadow everywhere on the earth :P

i know u don't like me as much as past months , i don't know why . maybe its because i said u i love u . or anything else , but it's not important now , i will try again , i will start from beginning and then when i say i love u u will tell me i love u too xD ! and it will be my rebirth of my life ^.^ .

fro starting ! i manitism xD hehe u don't know whats that , but u will know after my rebirth :P

it's not hard to find a friend , but its hard to keep your friends and be a friend .


u said u never loved someone in you life , but u will . i know this . and i hope i will be this lucky guy!
i will find u a day in a place .

can i ask question plz ? i think u know that i love u , but why u dont like me ?what's the problem here ? is it because of my country ? hmm dont think so , is it because of my pictures ? so am i ugly ? dont know maybe ! is it because of my acts ? i was playing game 10 hours in day ! is that because you afraid to love someone ? absolutly not ! so whats that ? why ?
it's really hard to love someone if u have completely dark heart with a small light in the middle :)

yesterday i chatted with my friend (ex class m8) , after 1 hour he said do u love someone ? i said why u ask this ? what will happen if i love or not , and he said i think u love someone becouse u look like that , u don't do anything , and completely you I like who that love someone, :) then i said yes i love a girl that she is far away from me and she don't like me anymore .

i loved U and nothing can change this , love is not simple thing that can find something instead of that .
love is the small word but it's like a ocean .

I really want you to really want me
but I really don't know
if you can do that.
I know you want to know what's right
but I know it's so hard
for you to do that.
Time's running out as it often does
and often dictates
if you can't do that.
Fate can't break this feeling inside,
that's burning up through my veins.
No matter what I say or do,
the message isn't getting through,
and you're listening to the sound
of my breaking heart.

Mine Is Not A Heart Of Stone, I Am Only Skin And Bone,
So I'm Standing All Alone, And I'm Only Skin And Bone.
I'll Take You Seriously,
Give Me Some Love,
Yeah, Give Me Some Love,

History

i was reading me and your char history in skype messenger history part few minutes ago. i think those are my best things that i had in my life, those are my best chats and talks i ever had :)
i hope you will online again soon , please do that , i don't know why u don't come online anymore :(
plzzzz do that plz be with me .
if u don't come online i will read our history everyday , because i feel so good when i read our conversation .

you wrote these sentence in your homepage :
I´m the Shadow behind every tree
I´m the Shadow under every car
I´m all Shadows a round the world


you are in my heart what you are and where you are .

i will fly again ! today is my first try to remember fly !

few minutes ago my sister said me you become a machine(robot) ! you don't have feel like ago , maybe she said that cos she was angry (we had a dispute on my computer ) but if this is true , that means i changed
i,m not same person like ago ,but how i changed ? , how am I now ? i don't understand !

plants grow everywhere and every time if there is some water and a little good things around .
they use the time very well they never stop , cos they know life is important ,
so why we don't use time well like plants ? why i,m like moving dead ?

happiness is real when shared !