i beg u , plzzz

it's first time that i want crying after years :( , but not like child , i don't know what i say .
u said u are to shy , i,m to shy , i think that's why i cant make this easy , maybe if i wasn't shy it is better than this , but now i don't know what i can say , i,m coward ,i love u but i,m not able to have your love :( , i dont know what i can do , i dont know anything , even i don't know what reply to you :( i check mailbox every hour but now after 4 days that u replyed me i dont know what i should say ! do i must tell u "i love u" time by time ? or its better to silente and just watch like sheep !
what should i do ?whaaaaaat ? why its so hard to love someone for some people :( ? plzzz ,i beg u ,but i don't know i beg u to do what ? i think i want just some love , yea i want U to want me ! ,

now i,m perspir cold water , its first time that i,m like that when i'm writing . my body is wet :(


maybe one day u will see this blog and u will know how much i love u !