just wanna be alone forever ... if you don't want me

well its 14 feb . valentine day , hehe you even have not come online on skype or skullcrasher realm these 3 days , today you are playing on anachronus again and last time i check you got lv 33 :) ,
i was to sad and upset today , have'nt go unicersity to leave ,
but my friend told me that i still have 1 more week to decide for that , (next saturday )


i'm so confused, sometimes i want even to cry like a child lol , you even don't care for me as a friend :) , or you dont want to do it or show it ,

all my friends try to help me as they think is good , except you ^^ hehe ,
i think i would hate you sometimes if i haven't love you :P
but i'll never hate you , you hurt me with this things, you hurt me when you dont talk with me for few days without say me that you wont come online ,
no body hurted me like this befor in my life , but i know you don't want to do this , you just dont care about me , that's all ,
i know you are the kindest person that i ever seen ,
i'd like you to come online at least on skype for chat , but i can't do anything for this , cos you dont want it ...
yea its all my fault that loved someone , i should remain as a lonly monster hehe ,
now can't do anything about that , cos i loved and cant come against that ,there is nothing that can change my thoughts ... ,

i'd like to talk with you , i'd like to play games with you like months ago , but you dont like me anymore because i told you i love you bestrider ... :)
well don't know what should i do what should i say ,
don't want anyone around me , just wanna be alone forever ... if you don't want me

that's what i wanted to say now :) gonna be online on wow and skype again , with hope that you will come on and talk with me .