unusual beautifull mistake of world

i'm sticking between air and earth . i cant fly and i cant downfall and crash also :|
i planning all my things for you , to go sweden , to study in sweden , to leave my university , to go military service 2 years with most bad conditions, i'm planning everything around you to meet you , to reach you , to love you ...
but still dont know what you feel against me . you even dont trust me even to tell your name,
it's not really problem for me , but i want to do everything for you ,
you usually have come online weeks ago on skype , but these days you dont come on anymore , even when we are playing wow ...
not sure , but maybe you pissed of me again . i acted like child i know , but it was with reason , you know it ...
i need your trust , i need you to believe my love against you .
i want to planning my future with you , i want to make it for first one in my life ,
i want to escape this country with all good and bad things here because of you .
i want to leave my friends, my family , or anything else that i have here , just for you ,
i want to be what you like .
i dont want to die for you ! i want to live for you !
i want you to understand my love against you . there is no one that loves you more than me ,
i want to be a man , not child anymore that crying and begging for someone to be loved byt you .
i believe myself , i know i can do anything in this world . i just need you ! not anything else . i want your trust .
do you think that i will harm you !?
yesterday francesca (orchid ) told me so beautifull sentences :) she is my bestfriend .
maybe you think its not usual that 1 person in one side of this planet loves other person in other planet , but lets be an unusual beautifull mistake of world ^^ <-------
when i talking with you i feel flying ,
its like butterflys in my stomack... when you online and talking with me ,
i need you to know you harm me if ya dont love me , i need you to know how badly i love you bestrider.