wanna tear apart everything , when you don't talk with me :S

ok :) waited few hours , you still didnt come on .

i'm thinking and just discovered something .

i want to come sweden just because of you , i still want to do it but i think my chance is below 1% that you may love me :)
because if you don't like me you will not love me later i think .
i loved you so fast ,
i can't want you to feel same ...
you are most similar person to me that i ever talked , but maybe there is some differences ,
you don't want to love anyone , not sure why , maybe you just think you have ugly face because of your accident few years ago , or some other problems that i still don't know . but i'm sure that you don't want to love .
if i come sweden and you still were same like now , that dont want me to be around like now .
what i will do ? will i say ok bye bestrider i going to iran again !?? no way hehe .
i gonna do military service and leave university because of you ! so what i will do if you just tell me : " i don't want you to fallow me always !" or " don't whisper me anymore in anachronos ,els ei will ignor you !" as you said it befor also .
you even don't want me to whisper !
even real friend never say it to each other :( .
you really hate me ,
you hurt me always ,
you confuse me always ,
why you just don't understand that i really love you :( .

these are the things that always i thinking about them .
i want to come sweden , beside of you , to study or work there ! to live there, because of you ,
while you say don't whisper me :) .
i still wonderd that how you told that to me .


there is something important that i still don't know about you !


anyway i just have 1 week to decide :
to leave all i have here and go military service then looking for you in sweden ,

or just leave wow and all other online friends . and be alone like i used to it ,


because i can't hold this anymore , i'm just destroying myselfe , with doing nothing . with tousends thoughts , i'm always upset .
when you talk with me , i become relaxe and feel so good ,
and when you suddenly going off for few days , and play in that fucked realm , and don't talk with me
i just going crazy like now . and i want to tear apart everything , i want to destroy everything ,