may lose everything

hmm usually i predict things and they happen after that ...

when i say i know something will happen its usually happens . they all can't be just accidents :)

at least i believe it myself that i can predict sometimes and i need to improve my skill lol

i know that soon or late i will meet you bestrider , but i don't want to say it to you now lol .

well these days i'm upset again that's why i wanted to write here today .

when my mom and dad get mad to me because i don't want to go somewhere (like my uncle's families home) with em just because i want to be online and talk or play game with you ...
or when i'm in instance with you and they keep yelling come and eat your dinner or lunch ... but i dont go because i want to be here with you .

and when i come online i see you are in instance with other people lol , and you don't really care about me that i always helping you in game , usualy i dont need stuff when i do raids ,instances with you . but you never notice that i think . when i keep myself awake til 04:00 or even some times 05:00 AM to be with you on game :) you never notice that lol
i don't know what you think on that times , but i really want to know !!
when people tell me ninja in game because i gave you the emblems or other loots from boss lol
when i leave raids when you come online or going instance or raids and need me there because it's hard to find tank and healer usually ...

when i say i do everything for you , just tell me what you want and i'll do that .
but you don't need my helps lol you dont care about me if i'm just playing game because of you .
if i spend my money and get game cards and get internet just because i want to be able to be with you ...
you don't care these ,
when i have fight with my familes , friends .. because i want to be with you !
when i left university because i want to go sweden ! when i wanna go military service here for that , while all young people in iran run from that . but i'm going there soon because i want to go sweden to meet you :)

when these all happened i just wanted to know what you thought . have you even noticed me or what i did ?

well I love you bestrider , and love is hard .

i will never forgive anyway :) i will fight anyone anywhere , just because i want to see you ^^
i may lose everything i have , but its worth because i will meet you one day and its enough for me .


i love you bestrider