same new night :)

4:42 AM , it's night , night again , it a night like other nights , it seems same as others ,
but it's another night , new one ,
you would watch sky and say yea it's same night... black and silent , everyone asleep like always ,
but savalan is still awake , yea he is not asleep like others , he is here and writing this sentences ,
you would say savalan usually write this blog at nights , so it's same night as always , but i say yea you right savalan writes this blog but these are new sentences today , they are not same ,
so it's new night. fresh and new ,and silent night like other nights :)

part of a lyric : i really want you - from james blunt :)

I really want you to really want me
but I really don't know
if you can do that.

I know you want to know what's right
but I know it's so hard
for you to do that.

Time's running out as it often does
and often dictates
if you can't do that.

Fate can't break this feeling inside,
that's burning up through my veins.


Is a poor man rich in solitude?
Or when mother earth complained?

No matter what I say or do,
the message isn't getting through,
and you're listening to the sound
of my breaking heart.

because

will i be able to solve this problem ? or not ...
no one knows , no one can say yes or no ...
it's a question without answer any soon yet .
it's just depends on my feelings and my power to control em .
it's just up to me ... not anyone else even you .
but i afraid if i control that feeling i would loose it ... what ya think i'm talking about ?
yea true the same feeling i'v had since i started this blog . yea you know it .
i won't give up , you know . i will endure and suffer . because i'm a man .
living anywhere in world doesn't matter for me . iran,sweden,africa,,USA ...
i will wait , because i can wait to all these . when someone can do something , he should do it .

ba ghame eshge oo khazan shod , no bahare javaniam
no bahare javaniam

what i'v done or what i'm gonna do , always effect odd ...
anything that i trying to do going to be opposite thing ...
i'm just suck like always , everything pissed me off again today ...
fuck you blog !! why i'm writing on you ..............................................
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what's difference between my writings and these dots !! ? what ? they all are black
they all are useless exactly like my writings here ................

smash it under your feet !

hey devil ... trust yourself . you can't done anything without trust and believe to yourself ...
if you are not best person in world , you are one of goods , and you can be one of bests ...
just try to want something and it will be yours ... you have enough power to do what you want .
you are not paralysis guy !! use your mind ...

does someone tried or trying to stop you !? just smash him under your feet !!! and continue your way... !!!!!!!

talking with you is the best thing in my life i would have ever have^^

:) today i really feel good ^^ , i wasen't good yesterday , until you talked with me ...
but there is a thing that i didn't answer you yesterday :
when you said : you wanted to go to sweden or was it just cause of me? ... play same game like ago ...

i didn't answer it , i said i don't know , but i wanted to say truth : yea it was just because of you , because i find new life when i talked with you in first time 1 year ago ... i learned love , i learned so many things at this last year of my life since we became friends ... i found life !
maybe i should have told you it yesterday , but i don't know why i didn't :) and it's kinda late now to say it again , so i write it here instead talking .

1 month ago you said i don't want you to have false hope , so i started to hate that word "hope" since that day . but : ---->
yesterday i gave you and myself a promise :
i will learn hope again , i will try to love myself again , cause i can't love other person if i don't love myself , and i wanted you that please remind me my promise when i forget it and I got your word on it ^^

my promise seems so simple one , but i have so many promises in that one , i didn't tell my other promises but i have them in my mind , i promised them also to you and myself without talking about em , and i will keep my promises .

wish i was able to say how beautiful is it to choose being lonely ,
oooh , your body shake when you thinking about that ? :)
like when we get closer to a wild animal ...
but the misery or problem is this : when you find something lonely it's not lonely anymore .
the light around it will disappear .
some people and some stuffs need to have distance with you , so you can't reach them easy ... and this distance is uncross able...

can an smile change our life ?

it's good question , that's why this question will live long , even so if we answer to it with" yes or no" ...
this question will fly around , it will flee ... without thinking that it can be caught by answers ...

it's the part of book that i'm reading , "geai" writer : christian bobin


i rather to have Geai's smile and the light in my mom's eyes ...
i rather to have what is not in this world or what is a bit upper than ground :) and flying...
i rather to don't enter to this world and stay at door and look at world ... an infinite look ... look with love ... look to distances of it... just look ... :-)

when someone loves someone , he always can find something to say ... always ... !!! :-)

prayer !!

prayer of the day : dear god , keep us safe from whom loves us !!!

aman , yine dertli dertli ...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mHg-Z3SNxsY

while there is only 1 crazy guy in city ... all other people there are certain they are not crazy ... :)

sing alone

what reason makes a bird to sing alone in middle of nowhere ... while there is no any other male or female bird near ...

how lovable is leila

when people told Majnoon , the king loves your Leila (the girl that majnoon loves) too ,

he answered : then king is my best friend ...

people wondered ! and asked he is your friend ?? why ?

Majnoon answered again :
i know how lovable is Leila , king loves my love so he is not my enemy...

the hunchback of notredame

we are foreigners, men and women , the homeless
we are foreigners,without passport
we beseech you notredame , asylum , asylum !!

I've closed computer 1 hour ago and wanted to sleep but went and watched a movie , it's name was wild land (it was about Africa ) or something like that ...

well i felt to write something after watching that ,

about things that i choose to take em with me to darkness when i die ... :)

sound : the sound of rain and wind ...

smell : the smell of the soil after rain ...

feeling : the feeling that i have when i talk with you ...