love is something that i earned by myself

after a while finally i finished reading the book , 1984 - George Orwell , it's good book , if you haven't read it yet , you should do it i say :)

some interested parts are still in my mind of this book , and i do remember em some times ,

one of em is about try believe to something that you never believed it before and still can't...

for example :
when someone says that he/she can make the floor of a room to turn a soap and fly like soap's bubbles ... and if you believe that , you don't need to see the action of turning floor to soap , it's already happened because you believe it in your mind :) , no need to make it happen out of your mind when you think, it's truth inside of you mind ... even if that person lies , it doesn't matter because you both believe you can hehe ,
it's a bit complicated at first , and you may say why you want to believe something with blind eyes , but i say it's truth in your mind , not out of it :)

saying truth or lie to a subject just depends on the way how you look at it with your mind .
2+2 = ?? 4 ? no you can say it's 5 sometimes or 3 ...
you would say i always will answer with 4 , but i say you can change always and answer with other answers :)
sometimes pain can change your thoughts about a subject but sometimes it's impossible to change the way someone thinks by physical pains , and it's really wonderful that you can change them by small or even good things instead of torture that person ,

there is famous sentence in our national that says : sometimes you can cut throat by PLUME easier than a knife ...

well i wrote nice subject today xD but i don't really believe it myself muhahaha !!!
i never can believe something when i havent seen it yet , or haven't experienced at it by myself or other one :)
well i think that if you go inside of minds of people , they usually think they are better than others , they think better than others , they are higher rank than most of others ,
and maybe it's same thing that i think same way : i think better than others usually , (notice here-->i used this word : "usually " i didn't use" always" ^^)

hmm something else left to say now , when thundermoon says she can read minds , there is 2 answer for it :
1) the reasiest way is to say no she lies ...
2) or you can say yea she can do it ...

but the most important thing is this : she believes it herself i think (if she can or can't read minds)

and now i want her to prove it to me that she can do it , because i want to know :) i never can say it's truth or a lie without seeing it or feeling it ^^ , it's just a 50-50 chance ,


the only thing that i would never give up is believing in that i love someone =P
and you can say i'm blind at it , or i feel love better than others , or anything you like you can say to me haha ...because i won't listen to anyone to changing my way in love and give up at it :) it's something that i earned by myself , no one gave it to me that would take it away from me ^^ .