yes it's me , who else could it be :)
but i'm not feeling bad , i'm not feeling great , sad, upset or anything , i don't feel anything special atm :) but i like to memorize my thoughts here .
through the last years i had so many times that i were upset or i was mad , and ofc i had times that i felt great too :) i experienced in love , i suffered in it and i guess i made you to be suffered too , well anyway ,
i think it was some great times in my life that i learned so many things , earned or lost many things , but i'm not counting them atm ,
soon i'm going to military service , the place that human learn how to kill human , the place that people understand how to use stuffs and tactics to cut and hunt down each other , i know it sounds not good :) but i have to do it anyway ,
and i am like so many other guys that could kill someone easily to defend someone or something which i'm care about it if i have to ,
it's time to move a bit , i said this words so many times and some times i tried and succeed actually or sometime i was too lazy , even to try what i wanted ,
but this times i have to get over it and be a bit tough on myself , i don't want have a grown size stomach when i hit 50 , i don't want to stuck in some places because of money , or because i can't do anything else than serving for other people ,
i wanna have an athlete body which is strong in mind too :) yea maybe it's the dream of so many young boys to get to a girl ,
hmm why i'm saying these ? maybe it's because im still think that i have chance to be good one for you , to make a better one of myself , i'm not saying that i'm disgusting no.. :) but you are so good than me , and i have to get myself to your level ,
well i won't give up on this hehe either if you like or not :)

i'll never lose my love in my hear anyway , and i think I've proved that to anyone which have known "my love for you" :) it's the part of me ,


well lets see what i will do tomorrow :
it's 6:30 AM right now , i'm gonna go in bed til 1 o clock , and then will be online on skype to talk with you on your breaks , will hang out few hours til your last breaks in your school :) guess i might read the book between your breaks then , and listen to some musics like always ,
then on 3:30 o clock when we're done talking on skype i'll sport some because i haven't done it for days or even weeks and my stomach growing xD , after 1 hour sport , i will take a shower i guess , then i'll come and play/practice some music , will study some flash training and try it ,
and guess it will be time for wow and talk with you at night again ,

and ofc i'll have my lunch and dinner =P i have not forgot about , and i wanna go out and walk some minutes tomorrow after sport and practicing music i think :)


lets see if i will do what i said at above :)