the man with the plan

i was writing about you and myself as my last post here ,
((((((((( ive wrote that i love you bestrider and i'll take any risk to meet you , or i'll just leave sweden if i see i would hurt you by coming there and meet you :)

but i think i have told these thousands of time , you know that i love you and i will always :)
and yes the reason that i'm doing military and go to sweden is you ,
or better to say the main reason if ME :) because i want you by my side , i love you and ofc i want you to love me too , and no need to play with words here , )))))))))
but i just deleted the things that i was writing few hours ago , and now i'm writing a new post here ,
i just watched an underground movie of iran about young people that are not allowed to play music , or leave iran etc ...

some times i want to just flee and forget everything in iran and just hug and hold you bestrider ,
but sometimes i feel like i have to do something for my country and human being , instead running away ,

but now i kinda know what i want :) i'm changing to "the man with the plan" .

i'll do military service for 18 months , i'll try to learn english and swedish as well during these 2 years , i'll apply for university at sweden , and i will meet the most important person in my life which is you bestrider ,
but then while i'm in a free country i'll try to help people in iran or other dictator countries , i will try to make or work for human rights companies , which helps people at so many matters which i might don't know all atm ,
i'll try to get a good education and job ofc , and i hope you will help me bestrider ,
i will be a pro person at music and design (which can do it at university) , these two things are the most important thing to fight against dictators , i can make alots of money too to build my company and help humans ,
i know sometimes i hate people because i don't like what they do , and i like to be alone most of times , but today i know that we have to learn to live together , i will help people because they can't help themselves , i know i have power to be someone useful and i will do it ,





i'll do what i have to do in my life ... and remember this bestrider :)

i love you and i will always


----->i will not post anymore after this on this blog for a while <-----


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My eyes grew heavy and my lips they could not speak
I tried to get up but I couldn't find my feet
She reassured me with an unfamilliar line
And then she gave to me more summer wine

When I woke up the sun was shining in my eyes
My silver spurs were gone my head felt twice its size
She took my silver spurs a dollar and a dime
And left me cravin' for more summer wine