love you all the whole world :)

IF your going to read this blog , plz just read this last post , or read this one first and last of other at least ;)


well few hours last from my last post , and now i feel like the REAL Savalan lol .
energyfull , strong , happy , ...
ooh btw i promis this is going to be my last post for long time haha ,
i know i'm different than others , in fact everyone is different somehow ,
these all are emotions , you might be upset or sad for a while and you could get better and happy and charming in few minutes/hour .

i was watching the movie "the curious case of Benjamin button " it's about guy that borns as an old child , and gets younger instead of getting old like all other normal people .

remember bestrider , you are so special for me , i'm not saying compliments , but i feel like i am special and you are special too , well these are in my minds and no one could tell me what i can or can't think about ^,^ i think we are meant to be each other , i'm not talking about god or fate or other bullshits =P i'm just believing in myself and you and this life we have ,

remember this , never let anyone to tell you "what you can't do " and stuffs like this , getting advices are not bad , but always listen to your heart and be free from any old school thoughts ,
we have to fight for what we want , otherwise we are not different than a dead corps lying in graves :)

as always i'm not scared or regret of choosing to join army and lovin you , because i know it is the fastest way to meet you , and that's is the only thing thats matter for me atm ,

i'm not going to push you in anyway , you have your own mind to decide ofc ,
but i'll do what ever i could to be a good friend for you even if you don't love me like the way i do for you ^,^ you will be always my best friend , no matter what we do ,
and i'll do what ever i could to earn your love too , and yea i am proud of myself in my life (no matter what i've done or i will) ,


i'll always love you bestrider ,




well lets see what we'll been through in these years , i'm NOT saying that i'm best for you or i'm not saying that you owe me anything for the things i did or i will , you don't owe me anything .
because i know that i'm doing these all by my own willing , and it's just because i love you and i could do anything for my love ,
and the only thing that i want from you is "to don't avoid me pleasee "

but there is a fact which you could think about it :) ---> there isn't many guys like me on world , to do anything close to things i would do for you , you are lovable and special , but i think no one could love you the way i do... without meeting you in real til this day (well we will soon) .
and i hope you'll understand it soon .


ooh right it is a beautiful weather out there , with moon and clouds , it seems so nice , and it changes every few min ^,^
ok going to finish watching that movie before i sleep ,

love you all the whole world :)
specially my bestrider , hope you won't avoid me and answer my mails when i'm be gone 4 days later :) love ya ...



savalan

i need you now ... i want to talk to youuuuuuuuuuuuuu , plzzzzzzzzzzz ...
i don't want to suffer , i want to YELL !!!! i want the whole world to hear meeee ...

i WAAAAAAAAANT YOUUUUU to don't avoid me plzzzzz ,

i hate this limits in this world , why we have these rules for us !!! aren't we just like an animal that thinks ? then why we have these damn bullshit rules , why we can't love each other ...

fuck you allll people , but i love you bestrider ... i love you life ,

i love life but i hate world :( ... i don't know what i'm saying , i'm completely out of my mind right now ...
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added few min later :
hope you are fine ... just checked wow to see if your on ,but you are not , anyway i guess you are fine , it said you were logged at youtube 16 min ago , when i checked it ,
just hopping that your fever thing it better (don't know what sickness was that so .. you didn't tell me) , 3-4 days remains til i be gone ,
i wish that you talk to me these last days , before i go crazy ...


HEH what a miserable person i am ........